i think i saw your photo in the social pages
(maybe i've finally figured out your name)
((that was always the most unfair condition of our exchanges.))
(maybe i've finally figured out your name)
((that was always the most unfair condition of our exchanges.))
all these years down the line
i haven't changed at all;
still not attracted to you,
still puzzled & enthralled
((by what? i am not sure.))
i still refuse every advance and every gesture. i'm doomed to fall for the right guys at the wrong time. i still lie in the sun, alone. with my books. with my thoughts. with a hundred... a thousand regrets. i can't make eye contact with anyone, not even friends.
you signify everything that is wrong with me.