and the feeling
never did subside

dirty keyboard fingers
tap like spider legs
quickly for their
lives

i know i'll sink without you

eloquence and grace and dancing without moving

the problem with
envy is that
it is far too
simplified.

just give it a name
and it seems so easy;
envy is fast,
fleeting.

but in truth
envy
is
potent

sinking into every
thought
until it meets
paranoia

oh,
they meet and merge
like a lovers knot.

i'm angry just because
you planned it
always, always

the thing i had.
the thing you wanted.

i don't understand
how did you replace me?

it's a wonder that emotion
is not a disability